To heal or not to heal?

During the last few months my body seems to be getting weaker; I have seen the GP; the Physiotherapist; tried a few changes of medication with no seeming positive result. Lots of questions, Is it grief? Psychosomatic? Sin in my life? Not pacing myself? Not obeying the leading of the Holy Spirit? And lots of the rest of the accusatory psychobabble that seems to come from my self pity or the liar from hell.


I had prayed and prayed for healing also others had prayed one on one, and in a group for me.

But then I read this 'Therefore, so that I would not become arrogant, a thorn in the flesh was given me, a messenger of Satan to trouble me - so that I would not become arrogant. I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. But He said to me, 'My Grace is enough for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness',2 Corinthians 12:7-9. When reading this verse in the past I had always focused on the 'messenger of Satan' part and felt there was an easy answer to that, just use the authority that Jesus had paid the price to give me. But hang on - this is Paul speaking and after three prayer sessions he was still suffering weakness. Twice in this single verse it says 'arrogant' and I realised Father God has been so good to me I can be very arrogant and lack compassion for people who are suffering. I am learning to fly above hardships, division, grief, disappointment and pain, as Father God told me He would teach me.



So then I will boast most gladly about my weakness, so that the power of Christ may reside in me. Therefore I am content with weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions, and difficulties for the sake of Christ, for whenever I am weak I am strong in Him, 2 Corinthians 12:9,10.

So gone are the days of the accuser telling me how inferior I am; God doesn't want to heal me; I am useless as I can't do everything! I now need to 'consider it nothing but joy when I fall into all sorts of trials, because I know that the testing of my faith produces endurance........' James 1:2 

Of course I would love to have healing by supernatural or natural means but until that time I choose life in all it fullness in this season, and learn all my Father wants to teach me as I focus on Jesus 'the author and perfecter of my faith'. It is so much easier to focus on Him when I am not rushing round and being over the top on my cleaning schedule. If I use this time to draw closer to Him, praying, worshiping and in the Word, this time will only last as long as it is doing me good.

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